Gratefulness

Over the past three years in therapy, we've been discussing how to talk about our BIG FEELINGS and Tuesday I just couldn't do it. Monday, I sat my class down and I told them that Tuesday would be my official last day with them and how much I really loved all of them. I was really sad about it. I am still sad about it. I love those kids. Tuesday, I dressed in my cheeriest outfit because I was feeling blue and came to work put on my Christmas jazz and we started our day. Those little jokers surprised me and got me a present and a hug line. Each one of my kids hugged me and told me how much they loved me. When I started crying they just hugged me harder. One of the twins A said she was going to miss me so much and I was her favorite teacher but not to tell. My little one who struggled so much but made so much progress because he's hot and on fire gave me a big squeeze and a tiny smile. His mom showed up later on and gave me a present and made me cry. I got to do something that I really enjoy and that I truly love to do and it just makes me so grateful.

I know there are big problems with public education but I'm there for the kids. I'm there for the little smiles and those kids that want to learn how to read or write their parents notes. I'm there for my teacher friends who get stressed and need a laugh or a reminder that it's going to be OKAY. I'm there for my son because he needs to see that I am happy every single day working with little kids just like him. Even when my body is hurting I love being with my students because they have the most unique perspectives on life. They are always trying to do better and to make me proud of them. When at the end of the day, I'm just proud of them for showing up and trying their hardest.

Teaching is hard but it really is incredibly rewarding because when your students grasp a concept that was once too hard, it just fills you up. Their successes are your successes. I am so incredibly blessed to have grown so much as an educator in this last placement. Ms. V really helped me to just spread my wings and fly. Just no words. Gratefulness.

My Body Hates Me

Oh my lord my back went out and this has to be the most unheavenly pain I’ve experienced in awhile. Sitting, standing it doesn’t matter it feels like my bones are burning. There are literally flames shooting up my thighs into my spine. What hell is this? Good news is I got most of my late homework done. I just need to make a reflection video, professional development plan, revamp my teaching website and learn how to walk by tomorrow morning. I have playground duty and I can hardly stand without tears pooling in my eyes. Yes. This is life. My current goal is to somehow get our the bed to put up my glasses and remote. likely hood of this happening again is slim to none.  I am aware of my current physical limitations.