Cue the Tears 😭

Today my baby was promoted out of Headstart. *intense emotional feels* I’ve been having a time dealing with all these...changes and this big milestone(while expected) just knocked me down. I had a good cry yesterday and thought I was gonna be chill for the ceremony today. But see, the way the planets have aligned... Issa Nope! 

One of the teachers was talking to me about some pictures they had for their “yearbooks” and my eyes started tearing up. I had to exit the room. As I was crying in the hallway, the janitor walked in our corridor. He didn’t miss a beat, he just said “it’s gonna be okay.” And went about his business. Our FSC stepped outside when she realized I was missing, and we had a chat about what happened last night and about single parenting when others don’t respect you as a parent. I really appreciate her today because the past few months have really sucked ass in some ways but she’s always been around to pep me up. 

I digress, back to topic. So it gets started and first they sneak attack the parents and recognize us for being amazing participants in our kids learning. Cool right? Then she double sneak attacked us and called five of us up to the front and told on us. A few of us were really active in class, another mom was there every Friday helping out. I was their literary nerd and read to the kids and found them books to go with their units of study. The other moms were always in the class doing activities or bringing cool stuff like SLIIIIMEEEEEE lol. So we got really embossed certificates and you guessed it, I cried. I’m a big cry baby. 

But then our babies got up there and sang for us and danced. Ezra just shone and even though my heart is so sad he’s growing up, I’m so proud of how far he’s come this year. After it was all said and done, a few of the parents came up to me and said they loved Ezra’s spirit and dancing. They love that I don’t stifle him and that I allow him to be who he is even when his energy makes me uncomfortable. I’m so excited to see where this next school year takes him. 

I am extremely grateful for his teachers and the substitute who was in our class most of the year(until the walkout). They have been extremely supportive and helpful, not only to Ezra but to me as a mother/parent and future educator. It’s because of the head teacher I met my practicum teacher and that in itself was a blessing. The HeadStart program is more than just an education program, it’s amazing people who want to help you succeed at life. 

Our FSC is going to help me with other things to move stuff along. It’s time to shake stuff up.