I Am Worthy of Love ❤️

Since November 1, 2012 (at 11:11) when I found out I was pregnant, I've been struggling with my self worth. How did I allow myself to become tangled up in the mockery that is polygamy? Or rather one man to three women. Is love really worth all of that? Didn't I deserve more??? When I made the decision to say "no I'm done", and walk away. -fade to black- I find out I'm pregnant. 

I got the appropriate song and dance, a day AFTER I text him I was pregnant. He said he would be there for us, we would be a family that he was going to change. Nothing did. In fact he left me while I was five or so months pregnant. Popped up before I gave birth, said he loved me that he wanted to marry me(I know, I know I'm stupid but I love him). I bought it. He disappeared two weeks after the birth. And as of December 13, 2013 he denies that our child is his son. 

I asked God WHY !?! I got no answer except "you ARE worthy of love". Today I had to remind myself that I'm worth love, my son is worth love. He is a beautiful blessing. I can't allow myself to continue to hurt from the rejection of him walking away. 

Sometimes when you truly love someone. You have to set some boundaries, some standards and if they are unwilling to grow up, to honor their word, to take care of their responsibilities; well that's when you have to walk away. No matter how much your heart breaks. No matter how many tears you cry. You have to be strong for the child you are raising. But most of all for yourself.

 Because YOU ARE WORTHY OF LOVE. YOU DESERVE RESPECT. YOU DESERVE TO BE CHERISHED. I deserve to be loved fully and completely. 

A lot has changed over the past year. I'm am stronger for it. 

    I am worthy of love