Sometimes it’s okay to call a spade a spade. It’s okay to visit the past and have no regrets about moving forward with your future. It’s okay to see what could’ve been and walk away feeling empty. It just is.
Today I had the most profound conversation with my four/five year old. We had just left a relatives house and he asked me if I was okay. I said I was and asked him why he asked. He responded by saying “you were tense inside, you relaxed when you got in the car.” How insightful does he have to be to realize I was tense when I was trying to play it off for his sake?
I always forget that people aren’t used to a child like Ezra. I get thrown off by questions about his large vocabulary. These are things that wouldn’t be shocking if they were a semi-regular part of his life. However, it is what it is.
He had a really good visit, he’s been asking about her for ages. I don’t know how to explain her health issues so I just say it’s really bad asthma. He picked out her birthday card on his own and she was tickled pink by him writing his name. I even talked to him beforehand about the last name thing so he didn’t upset her. He’s learning to pick his battles young.
I love that Ezra just gets it. He understands that certain things are too much for me. I think it might’ve been too much for him too, tbh. He spent most of the night curled underneath my dad and then cuddled up underneath me. He knows his own emotional bandwidth and how to replenish it. Today we did a lot (outside of our family visit, we had dr visits) and he handled everything so good.
#RedForEd I’m so appalled by the comments people are leaving regarding our educators on Facebook. I don’t get why your mad at the people who are pouring their time and resources into your kids, instead of being mad at these idiot politicians who don’t value your children’s education???? Where’s the logic at??? They are mad about a small inconvenience in the bigger scheme of things and that’s illogical. Smh
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