Just an Update on Life and Stuff

Since returning from Texas, life has been sorta unreal. I'm so used to visiting my grandfather that more than once I've driven up there only to remember that he's gone. I miss that old goat. Yeah, sometimes he made my want to scream and pull my hair out but he was mine. I'm just so happy that he got to meet and be a part of Ezra's life. I truly believe that Ezra made his last year enjoyable. For that I am grateful.

Also since returning to Arizona, I've been trying to work out an agreement with Ezra's invisible biological father for child support. You already know how that has been going. I thought we had agreed on an amount, but then he reneged and said he can't afford it, so here we are. I figure I've been doing this solo with the help of my parents so screw him. It is highly annoying however. I will not lie about that. But its his loss. He's not worthy of my childs love, not at all. 

I'm also looking for a job. Ezra's almost two, almost potty trained and I'm ready for a new challenge. I'm just terrified to leave my child with strangers. I trust no one except my mother with my child so the thought of leaving him is petrifying. It's time to continue moving on with my life and leaving the past in the past. I worked at Walmart for seven years and it was one of the best experiences of my life but I'm ready for a new challenge. Hopefully I will get my school stuff situated because I would really love to go back to school to become a lactation consulatant. I think that breast feeding is one of the most beneficial things that you can do as a mother. Its simply beautiful.

Being a mom is challenging rewarding, and awesome. Now its time to go back to my work lol My small human needs to go to the bathroom!