Saturday, March 24, 2018

Motherhood: A Fine Balance

As a mother and a student, I’ve struggled to find that balance between not neglecting my studies but still finding time to really enjoy my son. Saturday’s are usually spent fine tuning assignments and hurriedly crafting LEGO creations when my mind goes blank. However, today I gave in to a bit of whimsy and indulged my inner child a bit. 


Instead of homework, we went to Toys R’Us, the place where no one can afford to be a kid (you see what I did there). The prices are still ridiculously high and they don’t seem to be aware of their current financial straits. Yet Ezra walked out the proud owner of a Stormtrooper mask and he walked out wearing it proudly. I found him a reasonably priced Star Wars four action figures set for his birthday *woot woot*. When they figure out they are going out of business and actually slash those prices, I’ll be back for that toddler sized Darth Vader. I caught Ezra eyeing him so I’ve decided he needs him for his room.  


After that disappointing trip, we hit the mall to grab lunch because I NEEDED SJ. I just love their food. Ezra wore his mask and was superbly aggravated by all the adults who kept staring like they’d never seen a child in partial costume before. One guy told ezra he was “awesome” and Ezra was really happy and told him he was nice. I’m really happy I’m raising such a nice human. 


It was such a relaxing day and I needed it. We walked around and he held my hand and told me about school. He practiced having “conversations” with me and asked me about my day/school/emotions. We observed some strange teenagers rolling around in the dirt wearing white pants. He couldn’t fathom WHY they would do that because it’s hard to get dirt out of white clothes. 


When we got home we took a short walk around the block to see some planes. Then came in the house to put up laundry and watch our new addiction. Cooking shows 🤦🏽‍♀️ I swear I wasn’t trying to get him addicted but he’s just as interested as I am now. It’s just intriguing all the different techniques that people use when they cook. He takes little “notes” in his science fab lab book. It’s the most adorable thing. I have no idea what they say but he just scribbles away. 


We needed today. I still got a solid three hours done on my lesson plans before I got distracted by the ambient rain storm and ceiling fan. We put up three loads of clothes and had the house to ourselves most of the day. It was lovely. 


I didn’t realize how much I needed this time with Ezra. Just us. I need to do this more often. 

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